An old friend wrote me this through facebook. I would tell him ” I love you ” just to mess around because he’s never told anyone I love you back. One day I got online and to my surprise he had left me this…
People like you make me smile; partly because people like you tend to make other people smile. I worry that what I say in this message might be misunderstood so I want to take this opportunity to apologize in advance; Sorry. For the most part, I’m an honest person. In fact, I can remember several incidents in my life that (more likely than not) played a big role in shaping my attitude towards Honesty. That being said, I can remember even more incidents where I was blessed with the opportunity to express some honesty and damn the consequences…
When I was in the 1st Grade, I had a crush on a girl during the winter. So, I drew her a picture because that was my idea of mackin’ at 7 years young. Actually, I traced her a picture. Come to think of it, I colored that tracing. I did a damn good job of it too! Colored right inside the lines! But whatever, that’s not important. What is important is all the sacrifices I took for this girl I knew nothing about. I got my older brother to help me write her a cheesy poem:
“Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
Sunsets are beautiful,
And you are too.”
I even made my mom buy roses! Go ahead, try to tell me that’s not the cutest shit to do for a girl at 7 years old. The next day at school, I went to her class before any kids were there and put all the stuff on her desk. Lunchtime. As I sit there at my table (eating whatever processed bologna the school was feeding us at the time) I notice her at her table facing my direction when suddenly we make eye contact. My heart started pounding, my knees were getting weak, and I started getting real nervous when…. She sticks her tounge out at me.
Needless to say, I was crushed. I was living with my grandma and my mom at the time because my parents were going through some trouble. The kid I grew up with was dying of cancer, and I barely spent time with my dad. With all that going on, I quickly began to process things alot differently. Emotions were easily distinguishable up until then. But, after that (and many other experiences throughout the course of my life) I found myself growing numb to the idea of loving people for anything other than there ability to stay 100% honest with themselves and remain completely genuine with other people.
The truth of the matter is, I don’t know much about you and you don’t know much about me. Though, I’d really like to start getting to changing that; especially since you’re one of the few people that make me wonder if leaving school was worth it.
So you see, for now all I can love about you is that you are a genuinely beautiful, funny, intelligent, girl that enjoys helping others. I think that there’s a strong potential that we can both benefit from getting to know each other and for that reason I give you exclusive permission to ask me anything you want about anything absolutely whenever and I’ll answer it the best I can.
What I’m trying to say is, I probably could love you. But, I’m still stuck trying to figure out why you would say you love me. I bet you’re just fooling around but I still don’t get it. That’s why I don’t say it. I’ll admit that you sound pretty cute when you say it and I have fun making people think you’re a creeper. By the way, I hope you have a good day at school.
I guess I just want to post it somewhere I won’t forget it.
What Does A Black Hole Sound Like?
Sept. 9, 2003: Astronomers using NASA’s Chandra X-ray Observatory have found, for the first time, sound waves from a supermassive black hole. The “note” is the deepest ever detected from any object in our Universe. The tremendous amounts of energy carried by these sound waves may solve a longstanding problem in astrophysics.
The black hole resides in the Perseus cluster of galaxies located 250 million light years from Earth. In 2002, astronomers obtained a deep Chandra observation that shows ripples in the gas filling the cluster. These ripples are evidence for sound waves that have traveled hundreds of thousands of light years away from the cluster’s central black hole.
“The Perseus sound waves are much more than just an interesting form of black hole acoustics,” says Steve Allen, of the Institute of Astronomy and a co-investigator in the research. “These sound waves may be the key in figuring out how galaxy clusters, the largest structures in the Universe, grow.”
School is really important: Reading, writing, arithmetic. But what they tend to do is teach you reading, writing, arithmetic…then teach you reading, writing, arithmetic again. Then again, then again, just making it harder and harder just to keep you busy. And that’s where I think they messed up. There should be a class on drugs. There should be a class on sex education. No, REAL sex education class, not just pictures and illogical terms…There should be a class on scams, there should be a class on religious cults, there should be a class on police brutality, there should be a class on apartheid, there should be a class on racism in America, there should be a class on why people are hungry, but there’s not, their class is on…gym….Their class is like Algebra. we have yet to go a store and said, “Can I have X Y + 2 and give me my Y change back, thank you.” You know?…Like foreign languages. I think that they are important, but I don’t think it should be required. Actually, they should be teaching you English, and then teach you how to understand double talk, politician’s double talk. Not teaching you how to understand French and Spanish and GERMAN. When am I going to Germany? I can’t afford to pay my rent in America! How am I going to Germany?
—Tupac, Age 17 On the Topic of Education, 1988.